Sunday, November 9, 2008

Relationships

Why do relationships hurt so much?
I am beginning to see that perhaps I became too selfish in my relationships. Perhaps I expected too much. . . I had this idea in my head that my relationships were invincible. . . But that is far from the truth.
I wish that I would learn the first time so I didn't have to go through a similar situation, but I guess I'm too hard-headed.
Sometimes I just feel like I don't have enough energy to pour into any new relationships with other people because I'm afraid they will suffer the same fate as previous relationships, and I don't want to go through the same pain again.

One good thing comes when my relationships hurt the most: I have no other place to go but to Him whose relationship is stronger to me than any other can be.
I recognized this concept early on, but accepting it was harder than I at first thought. Why can I not accept that God is the only relationship that I need?
So I can only trust that God is listening to my cries and hurts, and cling to the promise that all things work together for good for those who love God.

1 comment:

Mark Jenkins said...

Sorry you are going through a rough time, I'll pray that God will reveal His purpose even in this. Many things come & go, but God is forever. Trust that He is sovereign. Love you, Mrs. J.